It seems that as a girl, I am obligated to talk about body issues.
Yet, this is topic is relevant to certain circumstances in my life as of right now.
One day, I was just going about my business when a coworker came up to me and asked if I was pregnant. I was very upset because there is no way in the world I could be pregnant. Trust me. I reply no and she says that I was looking a little chunky. I tell this story to my friends and they assure me that this coworker is entirely insane to say this.
But it still stuck in my head. It’s something that sticks in my head as I try on clothes and I can’t move on from that one comment.
So fast forward to Tuesday Night, where I’m watching “The Biggest Loser” and remembering that one comment. So I decided to express to Phil my feelings and how I wanted to loose weight, but I’m weak on my own. So he said he would help. Then came the thing that everyone who thinks that they are fat fear. The Scale.
I weighed 145 lbs……
Lord, that is horrible. It is the most I have ever weighed. In my LIFE!! I’m a little distraught.
Why does everyone put so much emphasis on looks and body image. It’s just something that is drilled into everyone from birth. Women get slammed for their looks all the time. It’s really sad.
Sometimes I wish that I wouldn’t be tied into what people think of my looks and be so self-conscious. Yet, my mom has always been on top of me about how I dress and how I present myself.
Society is so fixated on looks and appearances. How many self-help books on loosing weight, fad diets, tv shows, and exercise equipment commercials are out there in this world? It’s very profitable to pick on people’s fear of being fat and/or ugly. Aren’t we humans who just want to feel like we belong and are liked. Don’t we NOT want to feel like a weirdo and an outsider.
It’s tough not to buy into all of this.
Grr…So I’m working on loosing weight. So I can be at my normal weight. Or just feel better about myself. Or just conform to the thinness.
Yay me. (Sarcasm)
For one thing, diets don’t work. For another, you’d have to be about 4′ tall for 145 to be fat or chunky or even worth TRYING to lose weight over.
Spending time at Shapely Prose has done wonders for my self-esteem.