So I’ve been promising that I would answer that big question: “Am I depending on God or just believing in him?”
I decided to try and tackle this question on Monday and here it is Saturday and I’m finally posting what little I had tackled.
One of the big reasons for taking my time with this question is because the answer is quite simple: I am just believing in him. I am not depending on him, but on myself. I only believe that he will open doors for me to do what I have to do. It’s not God doing something for me, it’s more like him providing me a way. So instead of the emphasis on me. It’s kind of crazy, but I’m trying to diminish God’s role in my life. I’m putting myself in his spot of glory. Instead of saying, “God did it”, I say “I did it.”
Yes and as much as I want to say that this is wrong, it is not. Let’s dig deeper. I know you want to hear more. The reason for my not depending is…I have major trust issues. BUt that’s not it ladies and gentlemen, I have issues with humility.
And I don’t know if this makes sense, but it’s really hard for me to admit. It seems fitting that I’m deciding to share this when I’ve been getting tons of traffic.
So where was has the girl with faith in her creator and greatest friend? I don’t know. I miss her.
Lean not unto your own understanding – you better pick up your Bible and start to remember what you first believed before you started listening to all the other “options” the world has for you, or what the enemy may offer you.
Read Jude, and then read about the account of Jesus being in the desert and how Jesus was offered “the easy way” but was faithful to His Father’s way.
Is Jesus’s Father your Father too?
Stop the non-sense and repent and turn BACK to God before you convince yourself that you too can become “like unto God”.
Stay strong, you’re not alone.
@Follower of Christ: I applaud your epic undertaking in missing the point and insensitivity. Your comments on “you better do this or else” are neither helpful nor do they employ love. The journey to know and follow and trust God is not an easy one. It is however a journey, filled with mountains and valleys, highs and lows. The ability to honestly look at where you are and assess your situation is probably the greatest and hardest step in following Christ. To label someones struggles as “non-sense” without understanding where they are coming from or what situations they have endured is not only immature, it’s nonChristlike. Remember, Jesus never came against the ones who were struggling and searching. He offered freedom and love.
How about, instead of spreading condemnation and spite, you try to be a little more like the Christ you claim to follow?