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The Big Question November 8, 2008

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So I’ve been promising that I would answer that big question: “Am I depending on God or just believing in him?”

I decided to try and tackle this question on Monday and here it is Saturday and I’m finally posting what little I had tackled.

One of the big reasons for taking my time with this question is because the answer is quite simple: I am just believing in him. I am not depending on him, but on myself.  I only believe that he will open doors for me to do what I have to do.  It’s not God doing something for me, it’s more like him providing me a way. So instead of the emphasis on me. It’s kind of crazy, but I’m trying to diminish God’s role in my life.  I’m putting myself in his spot of glory.  Instead of saying, “God did it”, I say “I did it.”

Yes and as much as I want to say that this is wrong, it is not.  Let’s dig deeper.  I know you want to hear more.  The reason for my not depending is…I have major trust issues.  BUt that’s not it ladies and gentlemen, I have issues with humility.

And I don’t know if this makes sense, but it’s really hard for me to admit.  It seems fitting that I’m deciding to share this when I’ve been getting tons of traffic.

So where was has the girl with faith in her creator and greatest friend? I don’t know.  I miss her.

 

NYWC Day One and Two (10/30-10/31) October 31, 2008

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Technically, NYWC didn’t start until about 6 pm when I walked into my critical concern class. When we woke up at 10 am, it was to get ready for our first official meal in Pittsburgh.

We ended up at “Steel City Diner”.  Being from New Jersey, I was appalled that this diner was only from 7am to 3pm.  Anyway, the place was pretty nice.  It was a little small, but had the counter space and booth that is customary.  The booths were a little small and this place wasn’t really equipped to handle a group our size.  I had a gyro omelette, it was very good.  Yet, this place has the best french toast imaginable.

Afterwards, we went around Pittsburgh and visited the Monongahela Incline.  This was really cool and was like a cable car that goes up this very steep hill to the top.  At the top, you can see all of Pittsburgh and the different bridges that cross the river.  I took a lovely panorama with my camera.

Finally, we end up at the Convention hall to sign in.  I had my critical concern class which was “Leading From the Pages of your Life” by Dan Webster.  This was my first time interacting with Dan and didn’t know what I was getting into when I signed up for this seminar.  He said that a good leader is able to look over our own hearts before we try to lead others. He had us look at our life for the last twelve months and pick 10-15 events that have affected us.  We had to share these events with others who we haven’t met before.  It was really hard for me to be able to do this.  I will be the first to tell you that I have trust issues.  Yet, this was very helpful.  I got asked a very important question based on these last 12 months. “Am I believing in God or depending on him?”

The second part of the seminar was just as good.  We had to talk in our groups again, but it was about our passions and aligning our life to them.  It is really helpful to be able to see that God has given us an ambition and want and that our purpose is dependent on us realizing it.  Th whole fact that our life will fight against us if we are not moving towards this want.

The first General Session was good.  Starfield was awesome at worship.  I especially liked the bridge of “The Stand”.  The speaker was Mike Pilavachi and sadly I had already heard this message before like two years ago.  Slight difference, but basically the same.

I skipped the next seminars and took some time to visit the YS store.  It is ridiculous.  I am officially $130 poorer than when I arrived.

The exhibit hall is nice and I love the people.  People are so nice except when I tell them that I am from New Jersey.  One guy said, “Oh your from New Jersey.  I try to think about New Jersey like South Jeresey because that is the beautiful part of Jersey.  The Northern part isn’t nice.  What part are you from?” “I’m from the Northern part.”  Not a good tactic if your trying to persuade me to use your service.

I can’t wait for later.  I get to meet some twitter friends.  It is very funny to meet these people who you know over this wonderful service.  Twitter certainly makes the world smaller.

Hopefully, I can later reflect on that question.  It has really been on my mind.  I know that I’m probably leaning more towards the belief over dependence, but I will blog this later.

Talk to you later.